LIVE IN THE MOMENT

I’m back in the park, with an egg and tomato sandwich, a Bounty, and a can of limonata.

I’m trying to ‘live in the moment’. Hippyish isn’t it, but if I really am suffering from stress and migraines, I at least ought to try switching off the frustrations of the past and the worries of the future. Some think it impossible to live ‘in the moment’ of course, because it’s already the future by the time you’ve thought of it, and the time you thought of it is in the past. Time ticks in infinitely small fractions of a second, and therefore you can never capture ‘now’ because your brain just won’t be fast enough.

But let’s not get too scientific. The moment must be a window, or we could never enjoy it, or find freedom in it. So get that window open.

They’ve changed the recipe of limonata: less sugar (a good thing) but it’s less tasty (not a good thing). Perhaps I should stop drinking it (on the whole, a good thing). Perhaps today, I should just enjoy it for what it is (living in the moment).

It’s sunny and windy. The trees are on the move; close my eyes and they sound like the sea, teeming over the stones as the tide races. The leaves are fluttering inside out, and from a distance, the green and silver could be the sparkling of the sun.  

Sun, sea, and... maybe I could sink my toes into the late-summer grass and pretend it’s the cool, flat sand of a long beach at sunset. I’d like that.

It’s a lot about breathing, I suppose. A lot of stuff has happened, many things are about to happen, but only one thing right now actually is happening. Breathe it in. Breathe it out. Enjoy the moment. There’s no story in the moment, no drama, no tension, no resolution, but that’s okay. It’s all okay. At least for the moment.