I'm super-tired, and probably unable to make decisions. What I need, I think, is an assistant - a logical calculator to assess the parameters of a choice and give me statistical readouts on what the best course of action might be - a robot, but better still, a sort of growing, learning, robot, able to factor in human emotions like an artificial intelligence should. But not an artificial intelligence - a sort of dispassionate... friend... with no agendas... a Spock! I need Science Officer, Commander, Ambassador, Spock!
Sigh. No. No I don't. I need to sleep better and get better at decision making. The problem is that it seems my life is converging on some very real, difficult routes through the wood, and to be honest, Robert Frost isn't really helping here.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference
(from Robert Frost's The Road Not Taken)
Ambiguous old genius isn't he, winking at me with his vague, do-what-you-want ending as he wanders off smugly down the path. He may as well have said, "Follow your heart!" - a whimsical exhortation that's usually terrible advice; my heart is no good judge of anything.
So. No Spock, no Frosty, no idea which path holds the greater adventure, and only one Lantern to light. Oh and I'm super-tired.
Perhaps in a way, it doesn't matter. Perhaps I'll never know what regrets lay down the other road through the yellow wood, and what triumphs I'd have missed as 'way leads on to way'.
Better though, to do at least something. And perhaps the best adventures begin with a good rest.
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