It’s getting light out there. The horizon’s a sort of amber colour, a ribbon of tomorrow, no - today... creeping up into the dark blue sky, pushing back the night.
I haven’t been to sleep yet. This is the worst night for a while - and I’m not even sure why. I’m hot. The air is scratchy with pollen. My head’s woozy and it feels a bit like my heart might be beating too fast. No nausea though. I’m not ill. Well, other than the allergies I mean.
What are you supposed to do on nights like this? Tomorrow, I mean today, is Monday and I ought to be leaping to it later to kick off week 12. It could be a tricky day.
So, do I just try to stay awake now (virtually guaranteeing that I’ll fall asleep and not wake up until 10am)? Or do I stop writing, close my eyes and let the dawn fold around me like a blanket (virtually guaranteeing that I’ll be awake until my alarm goes off, at which point I’ll fall sound asleep and wake up at 10am)?
And then there’s the day itself. Can I navigate through the grumpy ride ahead? Will I have the energy for it? Will I make it to 4:30pm tomo-this afternoon without being accidentally snappy and troublesome? In fact, how does anybody do that? Will I make it?
I don’t think I’ve seen this sky for a while. Pretty soon the birds will spot it and the dawn chorus will begin. I’ll be alright, I guess. Just need to make sure I keep my head down.
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