EXTROVERT MODE

I flipped into extrovert mode last night. It was weird; I've been trying to figure out why, but so far all I've got is that I triggered it off by accidentally making someone laugh.

Why in the world can't I switch it on when I most need it? I mean there are times when it would be really useful - meeting new people, or even, hanging out with people I know reasonably well but from whom I feel a bit disjointed. More about that in a moment.

In any case, why do I even have an extrovert mode? I'm supposed to be an INFP, like the softest, most hermitiest personality type in all the Myers-Briggs pantheon. Here I am with the occasional burst of excitable ENFP or ENFJ or whatever it is - and so infrequent that it must look strange to people who see me on consecutive days of the I/E flip-flop.

I'm in Cornwall for a wedding, hanging out with people I know reasonably well. I think they're okay with me being silent and I hope that it's not showing up as antisocial - I literally can't help it. I would much rather be in extrovert mode but for some infuriating it's just not happening.

I can't even make myself laugh today.